So it's new years eve and I'm just now getting up to really start my day. I've got alot going on today and I'm actually excited about it!!! Only ONE more day till Stephen comes back :) I'm super excited about that TOO !!!!
Yesterday was a very chill day. I watched Natgeo and the History Channel all day. I'm a BIG nerd when it comes to stations like that. I really don't have much to talk about right now. Maybe I'll become more inspired as I start to drink today.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
My Biggest Satisfaction
It's a early Tuesday morning and I'm feeling quite AWESOME!!!
Today I came across a quote that I can really identify with it and it came from none other than Roman Polanski. He said "I can only say that whatever my life and work have been, I'm not envious of anyone-and this is my biggest satisfaction." After reading that quote I realized that I feel the same way. I feel like the things I've been through and all the good, bad, harm, or help I've done in my life so far have made me who I am today and have shaped the kind of person that I am. Even after all that I have been through I'm not in the least bit envious of anyone. Why should I be after all? The things that happen to us seem to me to be like building blocks. They help us grow, and learn, and at the sametime they add a little bit of excitement to our lives.
Learning that nobody is perfect seems to be a ever learning challenge. I use to think that I had to be the best example of perfection back when I was in high school. I felt like I had to be a part of everything that I could be in...even if I really wasn't the best at it like basketball...and every black guy is supposed to instantly know how to play that sport right? I wasn't envious and I didn't want anyone to envious of me..I just wanted to belong to apart of some of everything. Now that I'm pulling away from more things and now soley focusing on Theatre and trying to climb that ladder of stardom I've come to learn that my biggest satifaction is that I haven't been envious of anyone. I think that's due to the fact that I'm always caught up in anything that I'm doing that I don't have time to be envious of anyone.
Also learning to love myself has been a GREAT learning experience. I've learned that I've got to love myself before I can even begin to let someone be in my life. When I learned that I was ready to begin let someone in my life.
Perfection isn't everything anymore and I'm not striving to be perfect anymore. I have flaws like everybody else and that feels good. I'm not going to srive and be a people pleaser anymore..cause that's way to much damn work and it makes me so tired that I want to sleep. I learned that from College Night..hahah!!!! I was so busy people pleasing that it didn't do anything but make me constantly tired physically.
To wrap this blog up I'm going to start anew and if people don't like it then where they my friends to begin with it? I guess that's for me to answer.
Today I came across a quote that I can really identify with it and it came from none other than Roman Polanski. He said "I can only say that whatever my life and work have been, I'm not envious of anyone-and this is my biggest satisfaction." After reading that quote I realized that I feel the same way. I feel like the things I've been through and all the good, bad, harm, or help I've done in my life so far have made me who I am today and have shaped the kind of person that I am. Even after all that I have been through I'm not in the least bit envious of anyone. Why should I be after all? The things that happen to us seem to me to be like building blocks. They help us grow, and learn, and at the sametime they add a little bit of excitement to our lives.
Learning that nobody is perfect seems to be a ever learning challenge. I use to think that I had to be the best example of perfection back when I was in high school. I felt like I had to be a part of everything that I could be in...even if I really wasn't the best at it like basketball...and every black guy is supposed to instantly know how to play that sport right? I wasn't envious and I didn't want anyone to envious of me..I just wanted to belong to apart of some of everything. Now that I'm pulling away from more things and now soley focusing on Theatre and trying to climb that ladder of stardom I've come to learn that my biggest satifaction is that I haven't been envious of anyone. I think that's due to the fact that I'm always caught up in anything that I'm doing that I don't have time to be envious of anyone.
Also learning to love myself has been a GREAT learning experience. I've learned that I've got to love myself before I can even begin to let someone be in my life. When I learned that I was ready to begin let someone in my life.
Perfection isn't everything anymore and I'm not striving to be perfect anymore. I have flaws like everybody else and that feels good. I'm not going to srive and be a people pleaser anymore..cause that's way to much damn work and it makes me so tired that I want to sleep. I learned that from College Night..hahah!!!! I was so busy people pleasing that it didn't do anything but make me constantly tired physically.
To wrap this blog up I'm going to start anew and if people don't like it then where they my friends to begin with it? I guess that's for me to answer.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Another Day, Another Destiny
I was going to head back to Montevallo today but I got so caught up in Macbeth stuff that I decided to just stay in and get some of that done. I'll head back to motown tomorrow for sure!
You know to be honest I thought that I would really like my job..but now I'm starting to think otherwise. I hate to say this but I'm way better at something else than folding clothes to a "t". I'm not going to go into details about how I feel about this particular situation but what I will say is this...I'm looking other places outside of clothing retail now.
Today has really been a laid back day though. I'm ready to head back to school and for some reason I'm more excited about New Years then I was with Christmas..hmmm go figure! Last night after I posted the blog before this one I felt alot better about myself. I feel like a HUGE weight has been lifted off of me. I feel like I can begin again and really begin to make something of myself you know? Sometimes getting the issue out there in the universe is what it really takes. I hope it shows that I'm not the perfect person I can seem to be, and the fact that even when someone is smiling it doesn't mean everything is always peachy keen in there life.
I honestly get better day by day. I do want to thank people like Stephen,Matt,Zach, David, Katy, Melvin,Steven,Jennifer and Alana for being there when I needed them the most and I always hope that I can return the favor to them. It's good to have a great support system in your life. People that can keep it real, you know?
I'm looking forward to a new year and a new me!!! It's time to put the BRAND NEW me into gear and and Melvin would say "Expect the Unexpected!"
Much Love to ya ;)
You know to be honest I thought that I would really like my job..but now I'm starting to think otherwise. I hate to say this but I'm way better at something else than folding clothes to a "t". I'm not going to go into details about how I feel about this particular situation but what I will say is this...I'm looking other places outside of clothing retail now.
Today has really been a laid back day though. I'm ready to head back to school and for some reason I'm more excited about New Years then I was with Christmas..hmmm go figure! Last night after I posted the blog before this one I felt alot better about myself. I feel like a HUGE weight has been lifted off of me. I feel like I can begin again and really begin to make something of myself you know? Sometimes getting the issue out there in the universe is what it really takes. I hope it shows that I'm not the perfect person I can seem to be, and the fact that even when someone is smiling it doesn't mean everything is always peachy keen in there life.
I honestly get better day by day. I do want to thank people like Stephen,Matt,Zach, David, Katy, Melvin,Steven,Jennifer and Alana for being there when I needed them the most and I always hope that I can return the favor to them. It's good to have a great support system in your life. People that can keep it real, you know?
I'm looking forward to a new year and a new me!!! It's time to put the BRAND NEW me into gear and and Melvin would say "Expect the Unexpected!"
Much Love to ya ;)
Saturday, December 26, 2009
To Think I Almost Lost My Self-Worth in 2009
So the year 2009 is coming to a end pretty soon. I usually do a sort of wrap up on my other blog on Myspace but on here I'm going to actually do something quite different. I'm going to be honest and hold nothing back. To those that choose to read this you may, or may not be surprised about what you're going to read. I'm actually going to let you SEE me.
There have been SO many challenges thrown at me this past year. 2009 had it's ups and it for damn sure had its downs. In 2009 I lost my self-worth as person and not many people know that because I always have a smile on my face. I've heard many a speculations about who I really am as a person and I'm going to state right here and right now that "YOU DON'T KNOW ME!"....but you're about to. 2009 began for me with being Purple Victory College Night Leader...I will honestly tell you that it has been one of the most pleasurable and worst experience that I've ever had as a person..not as a leader but as a person. There have been so many times in my life that I have felt that I've just been completely walked over, and in this past year I let people walk right over me emotionally to the point that I just didn't care anymore. I will say that it will be something I never forget, but it also was a WIN and at the end of the day you just can't beat that. Purple Side will always have my heart because when you look at it, it still makes me smile to see the color purple. My loyalty has been tested time ,and time again..let it be known that if I wanted to be a Gold I would've walked right over to the Gold Side and taken the positions that they've offered. No disrespect to Gold Side in any form because without the other there would be no College Night to be had.
While on the brink of losing my self-worth I fell into a relationship that now that I look back on it. I should have left as soon as possible. The beginning was great, it was but then something started to happen. It became about them. (I preference this by saying that at no time will I mention any names or dwell on the it...long...but if I'm going to start a new you've got to see what I went through.)Without them knowing what they were doing to me I emotionally and physically started to alter myself to conform to what they wanted when they started acting differently. I started to think "I'm fat", "I'm not him", "I'm a bother", "I'm not doing this", "I'm not doing that"...What the fuck am I supposed to be doing? This was always playing through my head because I wanted so bad for it to work against all odds...because I'm a fighter. By this time in my life I had been so hurt by past relationships that I was fighting for this one, because I was tired of being hurt. Little did I know I was tumbling down a spiral that would in turn lead me to harm myself in ways that I've never spoken of until now.
During the summer I went from 265lbs to my current size of 202lb because of a rigorous workout routine that I hadn't done since I was in high school. In the beginning of the summer I secretly reverted back to using steroids for awhile. In my mind I had been pushed to the limit and I had to get myself back to the size I was freshman year. I hid my needles from my roommates and kept them in my Jeep. I was so torn down that I was actually killing myself because I just didn't understand. I ordered different weight loss drugs online one which my roommate knows of. I was doing anything to prove myself, and to everyone that damn it I can do better.
The Summer of 2009 was honestly a tough one for me. I put myself in exile so that I could comeback somebody else and forget those that had laid so much harm to me. I heard people that said they were my friends literally talk about me...but nobody even knew what was really going on. Today I realized that I let one person and a culmination of other problems almost end my life this summer. I didn't care if I was going to leave my best friends Matt, Zach, and David...they were the guys that were trying there best to help me through it all. I smiled and said thank you..but I really was thinking otherwise. Towards the end of the summer I stopped doing the roids around the middle of July and fully started running and reading because a friend of mine gave me a book called "The Secret" and as I began to read it I started to take it to heart and started applying it back to my life. As I was doing this the relationship reared itself back into the picture. I was so excited that I jumped back into it and I almost forgot all the stuff I learned. About maybe a month in the old ways creeped back in. It revealed itself at diner with friends in a public area with plenty of people to see it. Although I smiled and played like I was upset..I was but it was act the fact that I began to lose all my worth all over again. I was so hurt. I was embarrassed and I felt like I was nothing. That night though something happened to me while I was at a rehearsal. Somebody was reading "The Secret" and everything came back to me and it was that very night where I took the step and started emotionally pulling myself away from the relationship because it was doing more harm than good for me. I asked myself "Why am I walking down this road again?" It's about them once again..there future, there friends, there time. Don't you see that nothing is being shared? Don't you see that all conversations lead back to them? Where do you fit in Tyree?
Having realized that I wasn't part of the plan anymore I kept a straight face and continued to "play" the part for awhile because it just was there at the moment. I didn't know if I could do better or even find better. I stayed on my grind with school work ,in that aspect of my life stuff was going WAY better than it ever had. I regained my love for Theatre..but I wanted my personal life to match that as well. I knew it was at the end of it's rope..the relationship that is..but I tied a knot and held on you know? The day came when I was just through with the nonsense and I came to know that this is doing nothing but hurting me and the other person doesn't know cause they are too concerned about the future. So we talked it ended...peacefully this time...and the minute I walked out the door....My feelings for that person stayed right there in that room. They were gone...they were REALLY gone..and I didn't know what to do. I left chapter early and I did some homework and went to bed.
The next morning I woke up and I didn't care if anybody knew...HELL people were already saying shit and gossiping...Let em' eat cake too. I had moved on. I didn't think it was natural at first. See I was on the right road and veered off for a quick second to see if I was taking the right road...sometimes you have to revisit the past to make sure your on the right path..and I was. I started to regain hope and I was at peace of mind...FINALLY! FINALLY! FINALLY! I regained what I had lost and it was then that I could start to focus on the real goal for myself and along the way while not even looking I found someone that truly balanced me. They continue to make me smile even when they are not around. I trust themm and I didn't do that before in the past because I always had to stay on my toes out of fear. Now that's a story for another time and place. But in the end, 2009 was one hell of a motherfucking life lesson..but in the end I won..I was tested and I won!
I learned to not wear my heart on my sleeve, have faith in myself and the rest will come, Be a true friend, The friends that tell you the truth about yourself are your REAL friends, and always remember my self-worth. I know I've got haters and people that gossip about me...I'm always going to have those, but I can't let them keep me down. I've come to far to revert back to my old ways. I'm trying to get out of UM!!! It just looks to me that those that gossip and nay say are going to stay right where they are at until they wake up and get on the self-worth train and get out of my everyday wrongs and problems and really begin to focus on their own. 2010 I don't know what you have in store for me, but I know what I have in store for you and I promise I'm going to make it something to remember.
Staying true to myself and not forgetting who I am and ALWAYS keeping it CLASSIC and CLASSY..not siddity...just taught right and well. Don't get it confused! Much love to ya!!!
Always remember who you are and don't let someone break you down..EVER!
There have been SO many challenges thrown at me this past year. 2009 had it's ups and it for damn sure had its downs. In 2009 I lost my self-worth as person and not many people know that because I always have a smile on my face. I've heard many a speculations about who I really am as a person and I'm going to state right here and right now that "YOU DON'T KNOW ME!"....but you're about to. 2009 began for me with being Purple Victory College Night Leader...I will honestly tell you that it has been one of the most pleasurable and worst experience that I've ever had as a person..not as a leader but as a person. There have been so many times in my life that I have felt that I've just been completely walked over, and in this past year I let people walk right over me emotionally to the point that I just didn't care anymore. I will say that it will be something I never forget, but it also was a WIN and at the end of the day you just can't beat that. Purple Side will always have my heart because when you look at it, it still makes me smile to see the color purple. My loyalty has been tested time ,and time again..let it be known that if I wanted to be a Gold I would've walked right over to the Gold Side and taken the positions that they've offered. No disrespect to Gold Side in any form because without the other there would be no College Night to be had.
While on the brink of losing my self-worth I fell into a relationship that now that I look back on it. I should have left as soon as possible. The beginning was great, it was but then something started to happen. It became about them. (I preference this by saying that at no time will I mention any names or dwell on the it...long...but if I'm going to start a new you've got to see what I went through.)Without them knowing what they were doing to me I emotionally and physically started to alter myself to conform to what they wanted when they started acting differently. I started to think "I'm fat", "I'm not him", "I'm a bother", "I'm not doing this", "I'm not doing that"...What the fuck am I supposed to be doing? This was always playing through my head because I wanted so bad for it to work against all odds...because I'm a fighter. By this time in my life I had been so hurt by past relationships that I was fighting for this one, because I was tired of being hurt. Little did I know I was tumbling down a spiral that would in turn lead me to harm myself in ways that I've never spoken of until now.
During the summer I went from 265lbs to my current size of 202lb because of a rigorous workout routine that I hadn't done since I was in high school. In the beginning of the summer I secretly reverted back to using steroids for awhile. In my mind I had been pushed to the limit and I had to get myself back to the size I was freshman year. I hid my needles from my roommates and kept them in my Jeep. I was so torn down that I was actually killing myself because I just didn't understand. I ordered different weight loss drugs online one which my roommate knows of. I was doing anything to prove myself, and to everyone that damn it I can do better.
The Summer of 2009 was honestly a tough one for me. I put myself in exile so that I could comeback somebody else and forget those that had laid so much harm to me. I heard people that said they were my friends literally talk about me...but nobody even knew what was really going on. Today I realized that I let one person and a culmination of other problems almost end my life this summer. I didn't care if I was going to leave my best friends Matt, Zach, and David...they were the guys that were trying there best to help me through it all. I smiled and said thank you..but I really was thinking otherwise. Towards the end of the summer I stopped doing the roids around the middle of July and fully started running and reading because a friend of mine gave me a book called "The Secret" and as I began to read it I started to take it to heart and started applying it back to my life. As I was doing this the relationship reared itself back into the picture. I was so excited that I jumped back into it and I almost forgot all the stuff I learned. About maybe a month in the old ways creeped back in. It revealed itself at diner with friends in a public area with plenty of people to see it. Although I smiled and played like I was upset..I was but it was act the fact that I began to lose all my worth all over again. I was so hurt. I was embarrassed and I felt like I was nothing. That night though something happened to me while I was at a rehearsal. Somebody was reading "The Secret" and everything came back to me and it was that very night where I took the step and started emotionally pulling myself away from the relationship because it was doing more harm than good for me. I asked myself "Why am I walking down this road again?" It's about them once again..there future, there friends, there time. Don't you see that nothing is being shared? Don't you see that all conversations lead back to them? Where do you fit in Tyree?
Having realized that I wasn't part of the plan anymore I kept a straight face and continued to "play" the part for awhile because it just was there at the moment. I didn't know if I could do better or even find better. I stayed on my grind with school work ,in that aspect of my life stuff was going WAY better than it ever had. I regained my love for Theatre..but I wanted my personal life to match that as well. I knew it was at the end of it's rope..the relationship that is..but I tied a knot and held on you know? The day came when I was just through with the nonsense and I came to know that this is doing nothing but hurting me and the other person doesn't know cause they are too concerned about the future. So we talked it ended...peacefully this time...and the minute I walked out the door....My feelings for that person stayed right there in that room. They were gone...they were REALLY gone..and I didn't know what to do. I left chapter early and I did some homework and went to bed.
The next morning I woke up and I didn't care if anybody knew...HELL people were already saying shit and gossiping...Let em' eat cake too. I had moved on. I didn't think it was natural at first. See I was on the right road and veered off for a quick second to see if I was taking the right road...sometimes you have to revisit the past to make sure your on the right path..and I was. I started to regain hope and I was at peace of mind...FINALLY! FINALLY! FINALLY! I regained what I had lost and it was then that I could start to focus on the real goal for myself and along the way while not even looking I found someone that truly balanced me. They continue to make me smile even when they are not around. I trust themm and I didn't do that before in the past because I always had to stay on my toes out of fear. Now that's a story for another time and place. But in the end, 2009 was one hell of a motherfucking life lesson..but in the end I won..I was tested and I won!
I learned to not wear my heart on my sleeve, have faith in myself and the rest will come, Be a true friend, The friends that tell you the truth about yourself are your REAL friends, and always remember my self-worth. I know I've got haters and people that gossip about me...I'm always going to have those, but I can't let them keep me down. I've come to far to revert back to my old ways. I'm trying to get out of UM!!! It just looks to me that those that gossip and nay say are going to stay right where they are at until they wake up and get on the self-worth train and get out of my everyday wrongs and problems and really begin to focus on their own. 2010 I don't know what you have in store for me, but I know what I have in store for you and I promise I'm going to make it something to remember.
Staying true to myself and not forgetting who I am and ALWAYS keeping it CLASSIC and CLASSY..not siddity...just taught right and well. Don't get it confused! Much love to ya!!!
Always remember who you are and don't let someone break you down..EVER!
The Day After....
So it's the day after Christmas. I was just on my way to sleep when I remembered that I hadn't blogged. Christmas was nice..but different. I honestly wouldn't want to do that again. I guess since Grandma died Christmas just really hasn't been the same for me. I miss her. I often find myself thinking about the fun times I had with her and Granddad too! I came back from Louisville so I could work and get some work done. I'm already ready for classes to go ahead and start back.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Live from Louisville, Kentucky!
It's Christmas Eve and I'm here in Louisville, Kentucky! So far it's been okay. To be honest I'm really ready to head back to Montevallo and get some much need work done. I'm a crazy as diet right now and I've been doing sit-ups and push-ups like CRAZY!!! It's going to be worth it though. I must say I love being a size 34 cause it still give me that thick look! Hhaha anyway I've been pouring over Macbeth and I've even started memorizing lines which is AWESOME!!! Yesterday I realized that nobody has the perfect family and everyone has there "secrets" and that's okay. I'm trying my hardest to adjust to this new found since of understanding about myself but I don't think my family is quite ready for all that. I've changed so much physically and mentally but the family sometimes doesn't even notice but that's cool. I miss being with my friends and stuff and Christmas is tomorrow!!
Monday, December 21, 2009
Now The Journey Into Macbeth Begins!
Hey Guys,
I know it's been awhile but I had to wrap up my semester and it I must day it ended pretty damn well!!! Now 2009 is coming to a close and I've got to admit that it will be a year that I really won't forget for the rest of my life. So much about me changed in one year that it still amazes me. I won College Night and I decided to start living for me truthfully. Now 2010 looms upon us and some major life style changes are getting ready to happen. I'm about to prepare for one of the biggest roles thus far in my life and I plan on giving it all I've got mentally,physically, and spiritually. I want to leave my mark here at UM with this role. The role is Macbeth if you haven't heard by now. I'm going to be doing some deep research on this play and also I'm going to make it my mission to do a complete 360 with myself physically for this role. The workout routine and diet that I've started today is going to be my toughest one yet. Right now I weigh 202 lbs and I plan to stay that weight while I lean myself up and add contours and definition to my body. Do I think I can do it? I have NO DOUBT that I can achieve this feet.
I'm really pumped about this "experiment" and I'm anxious to see the results. I just ask for support and continue to follow me on my jounrney into Macbeth!
SEE YA ;)
I know it's been awhile but I had to wrap up my semester and it I must day it ended pretty damn well!!! Now 2009 is coming to a close and I've got to admit that it will be a year that I really won't forget for the rest of my life. So much about me changed in one year that it still amazes me. I won College Night and I decided to start living for me truthfully. Now 2010 looms upon us and some major life style changes are getting ready to happen. I'm about to prepare for one of the biggest roles thus far in my life and I plan on giving it all I've got mentally,physically, and spiritually. I want to leave my mark here at UM with this role. The role is Macbeth if you haven't heard by now. I'm going to be doing some deep research on this play and also I'm going to make it my mission to do a complete 360 with myself physically for this role. The workout routine and diet that I've started today is going to be my toughest one yet. Right now I weigh 202 lbs and I plan to stay that weight while I lean myself up and add contours and definition to my body. Do I think I can do it? I have NO DOUBT that I can achieve this feet.
I'm really pumped about this "experiment" and I'm anxious to see the results. I just ask for support and continue to follow me on my jounrney into Macbeth!
SEE YA ;)
Sunday, November 29, 2009
No Where To Go
Today has been a pretty good day. Right now I'm sitting in the SUB typing because my roommate at VERY short notice has decided that he would have his cabinet meeting at our place of residence and asked at VERY short notice NOT to be around...now guys how should I take this? I do think it's very inconsiderate to ask the people that pay there rent ON TIME to not be around at there place that they call home because you wanna have a little meeting. I'm going to step out here and say "It's time for me to find a place of my own." I'd think I'd fare much better if I lived with either just 1 person or nobody at all. I'm really weighing that option at this point.
Today I went to go see the movie "PRECIOUS"...can I just say that after the movie was over I had to sit and recollect myself after the ending of the movie. I didn't cry or anything like that. I was just VERY VERY moved by the intensity of the movie..DAMMIT it was good. It wasn't your typical "feel sorry" movie it was filmed beautifully and the actresses in that movie were phenomenal.
Well g2g PEACE
Today I went to go see the movie "PRECIOUS"...can I just say that after the movie was over I had to sit and recollect myself after the ending of the movie. I didn't cry or anything like that. I was just VERY VERY moved by the intensity of the movie..DAMMIT it was good. It wasn't your typical "feel sorry" movie it was filmed beautifully and the actresses in that movie were phenomenal.
Well g2g PEACE
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Fireflies
Right now I'm listening to Owl City's "Fireflies" I've really fallen in love with his music cause I think it fits my personality alot. Plus his music always makes me feel good. The last two days have been crazy. Yesterday I worked from 7pm till 1am this morning and had to be back at work at 5am till 10am this morning. I came home to the parents house and I crashed. The new job is cool and the people that work there are really just a trip. I'm glad Candace works there with me because she goes to school with me and we talk about some of everything.
Tonight I'm heading back to Montevallo and tomorrow I'm going to see "Precious" !!! I can't wait.
Well g2g PEACE
Tonight I'm heading back to Montevallo and tomorrow I'm going to see "Precious" !!! I can't wait.
Well g2g PEACE
Friday, November 27, 2009
A Turkey Hangover and Black Friday
Thanksgiving is finally O.V.E.R. and now I have to face today which is Black Friday. I got an awesome job at Aeropostale and I started Wednesday which was like the day after I turned in my application. I tried to work there once before but I looked quite a bit different back then..and now the manager said she wasn't going to let me slip through the crack so she hired me right then and there. I went in for orientation and the other girl that was with me left and they put me to work! I was glad to be able to work...MONEY, Money, Money! I think working in a mall is going to be an experience for me. I've always wanted to work in a mall..so I guess in a way I've fulfilled another one of my long awaited dreams.
Thanksgiving was kind of a bore to tell you the truth. Of course I got to talk to Stephen..which always makes my day better. I also talked to an ex...can I say that at first it was awkward. I'm really at the friend stage with him now because I don't think I'd ever want to date him again..you know? You live and you LEARN...and nice guys do finish last and I this time I didn't even have to turn a corner to realize that what I needed was staring me in the face.
I told myself that it was time for change and I needed to come into my own on my own and I think I have. I'm a VERY driven person and I'm determined to do what it takes to get me to the next position in my life. I've learned that I can't always dwell on the past of worry about what others may think. I've got to do what's right for me and at the same time making sure I'm making the right steps. 2009 has been one hell of a learning experience for me and I can only what the rest of the years will bring me. I fill like I'm making myself learn at a fast pace..and I love it.
Well g2g PEACE
Thanksgiving was kind of a bore to tell you the truth. Of course I got to talk to Stephen..which always makes my day better. I also talked to an ex...can I say that at first it was awkward. I'm really at the friend stage with him now because I don't think I'd ever want to date him again..you know? You live and you LEARN...and nice guys do finish last and I this time I didn't even have to turn a corner to realize that what I needed was staring me in the face.
I told myself that it was time for change and I needed to come into my own on my own and I think I have. I'm a VERY driven person and I'm determined to do what it takes to get me to the next position in my life. I've learned that I can't always dwell on the past of worry about what others may think. I've got to do what's right for me and at the same time making sure I'm making the right steps. 2009 has been one hell of a learning experience for me and I can only what the rest of the years will bring me. I fill like I'm making myself learn at a fast pace..and I love it.
Well g2g PEACE
Sunday, November 22, 2009
A Lazy Weekend
Hey Guyz,
So this weekend has been a lazy one..but a much needed lazy one! I've been ripping and running for the past few weeks that a quiet weekend with no distractions was GREAT! It's a cloudy sunday afternoon and right now I'm just chilling in the Library Computer Lab. I hate playing the waiting game on this BFA letter that come out on Monday..which is tomorrow..AHHHH! I'm really nervous about it. I'm not going to dwell on it just because I've worked as hard as I can to do what I need to do to get my BFA so I'm just going to give it over to the powers that be and HOPE for the best.
Thanksgiving is coming around the corner and I'm currently searching for a Temporary Holiday Job so on Tuesday I'm going to job search for places that are just looking for temp workers. That should be easy...right?
Well g2g PEACE
So this weekend has been a lazy one..but a much needed lazy one! I've been ripping and running for the past few weeks that a quiet weekend with no distractions was GREAT! It's a cloudy sunday afternoon and right now I'm just chilling in the Library Computer Lab. I hate playing the waiting game on this BFA letter that come out on Monday..which is tomorrow..AHHHH! I'm really nervous about it. I'm not going to dwell on it just because I've worked as hard as I can to do what I need to do to get my BFA so I'm just going to give it over to the powers that be and HOPE for the best.
Thanksgiving is coming around the corner and I'm currently searching for a Temporary Holiday Job so on Tuesday I'm going to job search for places that are just looking for temp workers. That should be easy...right?
Well g2g PEACE
Friday, November 20, 2009
My First Blog!
Hey Guyz,
This is my first blog here on Blog. I thought I would try something new since I've been blogging on myspace for a LIFETIME now. So I guess you're wonder who exactley is Tyree? Well I'm a 23 year old senior in college living in a small town called Montevallo. I'm a theatre major and the stage is my life. I've had alot of life altering experiences in my life that have made me who I am today and I have no regrets about the decisions I've made in my life.
I'm headed towards a new direction in my love life, my family life and my future life that's waiting just around the riverbend...haha did you catch that Pocahontas reference? See that's the type of guy I am and you can expect some fun, poingant blogs from me. I'm not perfect and I plan to bare all in this particular blog. I want to show you my world and how I see it and live it day to day. So sit back and stay tuned for a fun and exciting ride.
Well g2g PEACE
This is my first blog here on Blog. I thought I would try something new since I've been blogging on myspace for a LIFETIME now. So I guess you're wonder who exactley is Tyree? Well I'm a 23 year old senior in college living in a small town called Montevallo. I'm a theatre major and the stage is my life. I've had alot of life altering experiences in my life that have made me who I am today and I have no regrets about the decisions I've made in my life.
I'm headed towards a new direction in my love life, my family life and my future life that's waiting just around the riverbend...haha did you catch that Pocahontas reference? See that's the type of guy I am and you can expect some fun, poingant blogs from me. I'm not perfect and I plan to bare all in this particular blog. I want to show you my world and how I see it and live it day to day. So sit back and stay tuned for a fun and exciting ride.
Well g2g PEACE
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