Well today wasn't such a lonely day after all. After I was maybe a Scrooge about today because near the person that I love so much, but it actually just felt like a regular day.
Today I performance of Twelfth Night was probably the worst experience I've had with an audience. Not only was the group late to the show, but they talked and made comments throughout the entire production. It was the rudest experience I'd ever seen. Half of the cast just drove through the scenes because the kids weren't even paying attention. As an actor I felt disrespected. This was my Off Day where I had made plans and we do the show for the group, but with no lack of respect from the audience. Our "Olivia" literally sped through her lines onstage because they weren't even listening. After the show one school stayed for the talk-back and they thanked us and they knew how rude the other school had been.
After that fiasco I came back to my housing and did some laundry, cleaned up the place, and went to the gym. I was feeling a bit lonely today! Elise rescued me from my boredom and we went to see Gnomeo and Juliet and it was a funny little movie. I enjoyed my outing a lot. I thank her for that. I'm going to try and get back in the habit of keeping my space clean ;) It makes me feel better, and I only get messy when my life is hectic. This week alone is going to be crazy and long...but I'm just going to breath and go with the flow.
Well g2g PEACE
Monday, February 14, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Hour Before Valentine's Day.
So it's an hour before Valentine's day and this year I'll be spending it alone. It kinda sucks, but the person that I love isn't near me this year. So how will I spend this V-day? Who knows!!!
The weekend performances of Twelfth Night were actually fun. Last nights performance felt like my strongest performance for this show thus far. I decided to take matters into my own hands and guide the character's tone of voice the way I actually speak and it felt SOOO much better. Getting direction from two different people wasn't helping me at all, and before I went onstage last night I said "Fuck it! I'm going to do what feel natural and what my impulses want to do!" Last night everything just clicked and following my gut instinct was what I needed to do all a long. Some of the cast members were like "That was a completely different take, and every word that came out of your mouth really meant something" Rob "Yo ass was in the moment FOR REAL last night!"
Today's show was even better. The first scene with Sebastian and I felt SOOO much better and I through out both directing notes.
I guess what I miss about performing in school is how the directors at UM would drill you and how they collaborated with you on things. As of recent I feel like it's all about getting a show up, making sure set, costumes and everything else is in place so they can have the show up in time and get butts in the seats. I'm worried about the state of regional theatres as a whole. Specifically this place. Deep down I have the burning desire to be the Artistic Theatre of a regional theatre someday. I have great ideas for New Stage but I don't think anyone really take me seriously because I've low..very LOW on the totem pole around here. I also get the notion that some people think I'm the "dumb" one out the interns...and I'm really beginning to feel insulted by that. I'm not dumb..but yeah, I ask questions when I don't understand something, yeah I say stupid things sometimes,but that JUST me.
If they actually sat down and had a legit conversation with me I think people would realize I'm sooooo much more than what they think and they have someone whose willing to do sooooo much more and CAN do so much more if asked or just given the chance.
I'm now in rehearsal for Miss Nelson is Missing the Musical...it's cute, but I'd like to do a musical with more substance, but...small steps! I know I'm still paying my dues and this is a whole different ball game.
My time is running out in Jackson and once it's done...who knows!!! I'm already planning my travels this summer and looking forward to this break before I make this biggest move next year. NYC or L.A. we will see :)
Well g2g PEACE
P.S. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO YOU ;)
The weekend performances of Twelfth Night were actually fun. Last nights performance felt like my strongest performance for this show thus far. I decided to take matters into my own hands and guide the character's tone of voice the way I actually speak and it felt SOOO much better. Getting direction from two different people wasn't helping me at all, and before I went onstage last night I said "Fuck it! I'm going to do what feel natural and what my impulses want to do!" Last night everything just clicked and following my gut instinct was what I needed to do all a long. Some of the cast members were like "That was a completely different take, and every word that came out of your mouth really meant something" Rob "Yo ass was in the moment FOR REAL last night!"
Today's show was even better. The first scene with Sebastian and I felt SOOO much better and I through out both directing notes.
I guess what I miss about performing in school is how the directors at UM would drill you and how they collaborated with you on things. As of recent I feel like it's all about getting a show up, making sure set, costumes and everything else is in place so they can have the show up in time and get butts in the seats. I'm worried about the state of regional theatres as a whole. Specifically this place. Deep down I have the burning desire to be the Artistic Theatre of a regional theatre someday. I have great ideas for New Stage but I don't think anyone really take me seriously because I've low..very LOW on the totem pole around here. I also get the notion that some people think I'm the "dumb" one out the interns...and I'm really beginning to feel insulted by that. I'm not dumb..but yeah, I ask questions when I don't understand something, yeah I say stupid things sometimes,but that JUST me.
If they actually sat down and had a legit conversation with me I think people would realize I'm sooooo much more than what they think and they have someone whose willing to do sooooo much more and CAN do so much more if asked or just given the chance.
I'm now in rehearsal for Miss Nelson is Missing the Musical...it's cute, but I'd like to do a musical with more substance, but...small steps! I know I'm still paying my dues and this is a whole different ball game.
My time is running out in Jackson and once it's done...who knows!!! I'm already planning my travels this summer and looking forward to this break before I make this biggest move next year. NYC or L.A. we will see :)
Well g2g PEACE
P.S. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO YOU ;)
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Amaretto Sour Please?
So this week has been a TRUE test of my wills. I'm going through a lot of personal things right now in my life and I'm trying so very hard to not let them crumble around me. Sometime I wish everything in my life would really just fall into the right place, where I want too, and when I want it too. I don't talk about it a lot, but life for me hasn't always been a crystal stair. I've had to really work hard to get the place where I'm at now in my life. I just wish that sometime for the battle to stop so that I can be victorious and triumph over it all.
We opened up Twelfth Night tonight for a public performance and tonight was a VERY small crowd of 68 or more people. We are now in a very nice theatre and yet our audience tonight was very small. That really worries me on a business side of things, but I'm hoping tomorrows crowd will pick up. As far as the performance went I felt okay with what I did, but I don't think it was truly my best. Ever since Bob left I feel like something is still missing and I can't quite put my finger on it.
Today we had to tour "The Sword in The Stone" and that was actually fun and it was needed. Rehearsal for "Miss Nelson is Missing" is always a nice treat and playing a child is not easy...go figure :)
My mind has begun the countdown on leaving this place. I only have two months left here and I'm pondering on what I've learned from the Internship so far. I really feel like I'm giving all I can, even when I don't feel like it, but to be honest I sometimes feel like it's not worth it and I don't want to feel that way at all. Staying strong and positive is what's keeping me going, that and the gym. Can I just say that I love the gym crew that I workout with? We are all from completely different jobs, and places and yet we all click and push each other through our workouts. I love those guys, and lady :)
My Mom has decided to come to Jackson for a "quick" visit and I can't wait. You know how you feel when you think you're going to have a break down and you just really need support to get through some stuff right now, man it's been much needed. It really has been difficult being away from home, and it really is such weird, wonderful, and scary feeling all rolled up into one. I was thinking about my Big Cuz Patrick the other day and how we use to go to Huddle House late at night around this time and just talk and how he is so full of knowledge and how he kept it real...I miss that stuff.
I'm going to stop here because...i need too.
Well g2g PEACE
We opened up Twelfth Night tonight for a public performance and tonight was a VERY small crowd of 68 or more people. We are now in a very nice theatre and yet our audience tonight was very small. That really worries me on a business side of things, but I'm hoping tomorrows crowd will pick up. As far as the performance went I felt okay with what I did, but I don't think it was truly my best. Ever since Bob left I feel like something is still missing and I can't quite put my finger on it.
Today we had to tour "The Sword in The Stone" and that was actually fun and it was needed. Rehearsal for "Miss Nelson is Missing" is always a nice treat and playing a child is not easy...go figure :)
My mind has begun the countdown on leaving this place. I only have two months left here and I'm pondering on what I've learned from the Internship so far. I really feel like I'm giving all I can, even when I don't feel like it, but to be honest I sometimes feel like it's not worth it and I don't want to feel that way at all. Staying strong and positive is what's keeping me going, that and the gym. Can I just say that I love the gym crew that I workout with? We are all from completely different jobs, and places and yet we all click and push each other through our workouts. I love those guys, and lady :)
My Mom has decided to come to Jackson for a "quick" visit and I can't wait. You know how you feel when you think you're going to have a break down and you just really need support to get through some stuff right now, man it's been much needed. It really has been difficult being away from home, and it really is such weird, wonderful, and scary feeling all rolled up into one. I was thinking about my Big Cuz Patrick the other day and how we use to go to Huddle House late at night around this time and just talk and how he is so full of knowledge and how he kept it real...I miss that stuff.
I'm going to stop here because...i need too.
Well g2g PEACE
Sunday, February 6, 2011
It's February What?
So it's been awhile since I've posted anything. I've decided not to post every single day unless something exciting happens because my blogs were becoming the same. Yeah..I noticed. Anyway it's February..WHAT? Time really is flying by. Today THE 39 STEPS closed and tomorrow we open TWELFTH NIGHT at JA Performing Arts Center and I go into rehearsal for MISS NELSON IS MISSING THE MUSICAL tomorrow night. It really is happening all so fast..but I prefer to happen this way.
Right now I'm busy making plans for after December. I've got SETC coming up, but to be honest I'm not really looking for much from there. I want to go back home for a minute and save up and REALLY start auditioning in bigger theatre markets. I'm MOST DEFINITELY going to keep auditioning for shows around town, it's just I need to get my finances right so I can prepare to make a big move somewhere. I've been having VIVID dreams about NYC, but every time I think about it I get really nervous, but my heart says otherwise...who knows? I know I need to go home for a second and regroup.
The internship so far is going okay...I didn't expect a HUGE change after December from some of us and a lot of things have been happening, but it's really insignificant. I'm just worrying about the work I do at New Stage Theatre and putting forward the best of my abilities to make sure that they know that I'm dedicated to my craft.
I'm very close to having the play I've been working on completed and I feel like after that's done I can breath a heavy sigh of relief.
Along with changing my physique for 2011 I'm changing my attitude and I'm tweeting positive stuff. Not only does it help me, but maybe I'm also helping someone else too. I'm staying away from the negative.
So I got a hold of Amos Lee and Adele's new albums and I love both of them so much.
Well g2g PEACE
Right now I'm busy making plans for after December. I've got SETC coming up, but to be honest I'm not really looking for much from there. I want to go back home for a minute and save up and REALLY start auditioning in bigger theatre markets. I'm MOST DEFINITELY going to keep auditioning for shows around town, it's just I need to get my finances right so I can prepare to make a big move somewhere. I've been having VIVID dreams about NYC, but every time I think about it I get really nervous, but my heart says otherwise...who knows? I know I need to go home for a second and regroup.
The internship so far is going okay...I didn't expect a HUGE change after December from some of us and a lot of things have been happening, but it's really insignificant. I'm just worrying about the work I do at New Stage Theatre and putting forward the best of my abilities to make sure that they know that I'm dedicated to my craft.
I'm very close to having the play I've been working on completed and I feel like after that's done I can breath a heavy sigh of relief.
Along with changing my physique for 2011 I'm changing my attitude and I'm tweeting positive stuff. Not only does it help me, but maybe I'm also helping someone else too. I'm staying away from the negative.
So I got a hold of Amos Lee and Adele's new albums and I love both of them so much.
Well g2g PEACE
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